ALL THE FEELS

28 February 2024

Hi everyone it’s been 6months since I’ve posted anything. I’ve been on the fence about writing and reflecting because I’d fallen into an all or nothing habit. I’ve never been a nothing person so I poured all of myself into selling, packing and moving house, work and the kids which has left little time to devote to other parts of my life.

 I used to find writing restorative and it was a habit that was closely connected to my identity. I started writing not because I’m in any means a writer but it’s more about becoming the person who doesn’t miss the opportunity to reflect and share. But the haste of life catches up with you and sometimes you have more bad days than usual.

A regular patient of mine came to see me and in contrast to her usual happy self she informed me of concerning symptoms. We organised a whole heap of tests. She is a busy mother of 2 at the exact stage in life as me. I saw some of my bad days mirrored hers. Tests were normal but I think she already knew they would be. She started to get support which we agreed on. She now seems more at ease.

I’m glad she came to see me. Not because of anything I did but she’s building new habits in a new environment free of the cues from the past. Context is key!

So why is there a video of Miss M? She started doing small rides in the backyard and she wasn’t very interested. I was so focused on improving her ability to steer or shift weight. On Monday she insisted on going out on the driveway instead. A CHANGE IN ENVIRONMENT!! Why didn’t I think of that!?!? Here she is singing and flying on her first ride around the block. I sent a video to Euge and he messaged back ‘it’s giving me all the feels’. Being our ‘hippie’ baby with so many physical challenges any accomplishment in physical ability tugs at our heart strings.

 Sometimes a change in environment/outlook/reflection/sharing with someone is all you need. So here I am writing again and you may not hear from me for another 6 months!! But I’m going to focus on repeating good habits even if I do less than I’d hoped for, the perfect article will come later.